I Still Believe

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It’s been quite a long time since I’ve posted an entry in my blog. A lot has occurred within that time. I spent the past few years feeling exhausted all of the time, experiencing digestive, and skin issues. I remember getting out of bed, so sick to my stomach; forcing myself to start the day.

It was around April 2019 that I need to stop doing readings (even though I already stopped doing them previously and tried returning) and all the extra things that I would typically do because I just didn’t have the energy; I just couldn’t keep going.

It wasn’t until I was diagnosed with a follicle infection; where the rash I was experiencing just wasn’t clearing up – I had a feeling that there was something more than this. The thought of visiting a naturopathic doctor entertained my thoughts, but I never quite made an attempt to go see one.

October and November of 2019 were life changing; drastically. It was discovered that I had a few medical issues (that had simple remedies) that weren’t found from my previous efforts with other medical professionals. This is where I discovered that I have a gluten sensitivity. By listening to the naturopathic doctors advice, my skin issues were completely gone within 2 – 3 weeks. It all came down to how I fueled my body.

Around the same time, I discovered that I had sleep apnea. Who knew in a few short months, I would find the answers I’ve been desperately looking for. If something doesn’t seem right, it’s okay to receive a second opinion. Ask around – that’s what I did and I found the most amazing naturopathic doctor. I’m truly grateful and couldn’t have asked for anyone better.

Honestly, I feel truly blessed that I was able to find the answers that I needed. What do we have if we do not have our health? I feel that we all, including myself, take for granted the simple things in our lives. Whether it’s the ability to wake up in the morning, go running, breathing on our own, using our hands, etc. I try to be more mindful of the privileges that I receive each and every day. I’m getting into the habit of saying thank you for another day when I go to sleep at night – life is a gift in itself!

Life is continuously evolving and changing. We genuinely do not know what’s going to happen from one day to the next; to be mindful of living in the moment and cherishing all that life has to offer us.

We tend to have unrealistic expectations when it comes to how we go about our lives. We get so stuck in our own “version” of what life should be.

I never would have anticipated the magnitude the Corona Virus would bring. I try to focus on the positives rather than the negatives. I automatically go into the mindset: “What is this trying to teach us”. Personally, I feel this is a global reset.

A time for solitude and reflection; counting our blessings, slowing down, practicing altruism, healing, growing, and ultimately rewiring our brains to function in a brand new standard of living. I want to send lots of love and prayers for all the people who have lost loved ones during these unprecedented times. I could only imagine what you all must be going through.

During these times, it’s forced us to do some inner healing; all for our greatest and highest good. Speaking from my experience(s), I’ve had “tasks of self (let’s call them), bubble up to the surface that needed attending to. These “tasks” potentially could be triggered by other individuals or situations. They’re there to teach us and to help us grow and develop; to better understand ourselves. This process isn’t easy and can be quite painful in the moment as it makes us uncomfortable; it’s out of the norm for all of us. On the positive side, the healing can be beautiful.

These past few months, I’ve never realized the true power of faith. I have never clung onto faith this hard in my entire life. We are in uncertain times and it can be difficult to understand/know what’s coming next. Being able to attend church from the seat of my own home has been something that brings me huge comfort and joy. Sitting in the quietness and stillness brings about comfort in moments of great discomfort – evening sitting down and sensing the presence of Jesus is the most comforting feeling in the world.

Over the years I always liked to think that I had control over things – I could not be any more wrong. These past few months have taught me quite a lot, but this main point shines above them all. It doesn’t matter what is happening in the world or in our own lives – we are loved, protected, and guided; whether you believe in God, the Universe, Buddha, etc. We all have our very own journey that is uniquely tailored toward us. We all have a purpose. I believe God is with us each and every step of the way. It’s a matter of how close you want him to be and how we define our relationship with him. Everything happens with a purpose. This purpose we may or may not understood fully during our lifetime.

All I know, what ever happens within my lifetime – I still believe.

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